Spinning Wheels

Over the past 5 weeks, since returning from Thailand, I have been slowly transitioning from a traditional "working a 9 to 5 and living in a house" lifestyle to "unemployed and living out of my car and tent." It's been frustratingly difficult to adjust and find the balance between embracing my new freedom and developing some sort of structure and routine.

Some of the minor luxuries I am learning to live without include: staying in to bake banana bread, purchasing yummy perishables like cheese and yogurt, reading on the couch, and one of my favorites, taking long, multi-hour naps. It seems these things just don't happen when you live out of a Honda Accord.

Even more difficult has been trying to find the balance between climbing, learning to highline, and triathlon training. Throw in a passion for bike touring, backpacking, and mountain climbing, and I am spinning my wheels in all directions. I know, you're probably asking, "And this is a problem because....?" Hell, I ask myself the same question. I should be so lucky to have too many fun activities and goals. Yet, I find myself both restless and paralyzed at times, and then I accomplish nothing. Other days, I try to do it all and drive myself to exhaustion. And then we're back to the lack of an adequate napping location.


Last summer, I raced almost every weekend from June to August, and I was in the best cardio/endurance shape of my life. I want to get back there. No, actually, I want to go beyond, into the realm of iron man and ultra marathons. But.....I am also climbing harder than I ever have before, and I want to keep pushing myself and developing my strength and technique in all styles. But.....I am finally seeing myself improve on the slackline and I'm craving my first step on a highline. I know that the best way to achieve this is to just get out there and do it, over and over again. But......I have been tuning up my touring bike and dreaming of Eastern Oregon as well as Highway 1 South. And South America. Crap!

Why can't I be one of those people with one singular passion? No, no....that's never been my style.


Gosh, life is hard.

It's okay, I expect no sympathy. But, can someone please develop a schedule for me that includes a healthy dose all of these activities? And please, leave some room for spontaneity and adventure........